I am confused

I am writing this blog in the middle of a hell lot of confusion almost like an ocean of thoughts in my mind asking me one simple question is the life ,the way I am living right now ,is what I wanted?

And I dont know the answer but I know only this that in order to be a grow up like all other people around me I have lost my identity and have become some1 I never wanted to be.

I never thought I would become like what I am today.I have started deviating from my aim in life and felt in unnecessary(i even dont know the spelling of it) things around me .

I think the time has come that I should part myself from useless stuff and again start living a motiveful life cause I really cant bear this motiveless life frreaking just any other chap.

Now I am realising why my father asked me to be always with like-minded people cause people who cant think the same way one do cant survive with others though in most cases it has bought in good things for me as I learnt new way of living ,like the way a college dude should.But hey I never wanted to be like college fucha insted a desent simple and adorable chap.

Sometime change in personality is good but I think I have changed for bad I still remeber I took one decision in 8th standard to make my focus shift from hard core studies to activities also and it really helped and but this time my decison of change from a nice little chap to be a like any other college hunk as made me a looser who is cought in between the two identities

YS Reddy- A name to remeber

YS Reddy a politician of south India thats what I knew till his death but ater his funeral when I came to know the dynamic charactor of the person ,I was shocked that I witnesses a clean politician with so much charm and following .A person who held INC flag right in middle of storm in South India`s Turnmoil with the river and ltte dispute.A great man with wonderful dynamism