Why I am not like others?

Why I am not like others this is the question I always ask myself.Why just I cant be like anu other normal guy who lives cool and chill life with nthing to worry bout the world or any future.I am alwys running for my futures perfection but never wins infact gets a hell lot of pitholes.I am really upset being what I am.

Moreover everyone expec so much from me and I cant deliver them to the full which I could but the situation adn luck tosses my destiny.

I just wanna change myself.Just like others guys who habg out from home for late or those dont have to be bound for permissions for everything nor they have to think of the so called marwari family values .