I am confused

I am writing this blog in the middle of a hell lot of confusion almost like an ocean of thoughts in my mind asking me one simple question is the life ,the way I am living right now ,is what I wanted?

And I dont know the answer but I know only this that in order to be a grow up like all other people around me I have lost my identity and have become some1 I never wanted to be.

I never thought I would become like what I am today.I have started deviating from my aim in life and felt in unnecessary(i even dont know the spelling of it) things around me .

I think the time has come that I should part myself from useless stuff and again start living a motiveful life cause I really cant bear this motiveless life frreaking just any other chap.

Now I am realising why my father asked me to be always with like-minded people cause people who cant think the same way one do cant survive with others though in most cases it has bought in good things for me as I learnt new way of living ,like the way a college dude should.But hey I never wanted to be like college fucha insted a desent simple and adorable chap.

Sometime change in personality is good but I think I have changed for bad I still remeber I took one decision in 8th standard to make my focus shift from hard core studies to activities also and it really helped and but this time my decison of change from a nice little chap to be a like any other college hunk as made me a looser who is cought in between the two identities

YS Reddy- A name to remeber

YS Reddy a politician of south India thats what I knew till his death but ater his funeral when I came to know the dynamic charactor of the person ,I was shocked that I witnesses a clean politician with so much charm and following .A person who held INC flag right in middle of storm in South India`s Turnmoil with the river and ltte dispute.A great man with wonderful dynamism

Why I am not like others?

Why I am not like others this is the question I always ask myself.Why just I cant be like anu other normal guy who lives cool and chill life with nthing to worry bout the world or any future.I am alwys running for my futures perfection but never wins infact gets a hell lot of pitholes.I am really upset being what I am.

Moreover everyone expec so much from me and I cant deliver them to the full which I could but the situation adn luck tosses my destiny.

I just wanna change myself.Just like others guys who habg out from home for late or those dont have to be bound for permissions for everything nor they have to think of the so called marwari family values .

www.ihaveadream.in

I am trapped within a population sea So much my heart desires to be set free Desire for large buildings, I have none I want open fields and to see the rising sun Traffic, cars, and concrete so coarse I'll have no need of these if mounted upon a horse To run! to gallop! All across the land wind in my face, reins within my hand My faithful compainon, I need no other friend The bond between us, no one can comprehend This vision brings me great happiness But I cry because it is simple foolishness For I know nothing of which I seek I have never experianced that of which I speak I am trapped within a population sea I am trapped, with no way to be set free.
So if you have a dream then tell the world that "I have a Dream"

Everything happens for the best!

Whatever your cross,
Whatever your pain,
There will always be sunshine,
After the rain...

Perhaps you may stumble,
Perhaps even fall,
But God's always ready,
To answer your call...

He knows every heartache,
Sees every tear,
A word from His lips,
Can calm every fear...

Your sorrows may linger,
Throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish,
In dawn's early light...

The Savior is waiting,
Somewhere above,
To give you His grace,
And send you His love...

Whatever your cross,
Whatever your pain,
"God always sends rainbows...
After the rain..."